"You're perfectly content sailing along on cloud nine! The source of your bliss could be that new person in your life. Are you passionately, intensely, wonderfully in love? You can yield to the magic. Let it bring out the positive parts of your personality, but keep your wits about you all the same!"

Still searching...

I am coming to the conclusion that I am good at taking care of others. I know that it doesn't sound like something only "special" people can do but it is a little different for me. I don't mind going out of my way for others. I always put myself in "their" shoes and that makes me want to help. I want my family and friends to know that if there is anything they ever need they can count on me, no matter what! There lies the problem..."no matter what". My husband goes crazy when he sees me run out the door early morning / late night to help someone. He feels I get taken advantage of a lot. I had to discover my boundaries with people, everyone had different boundaries in my life depending on what they need from me and how it will inconvenience me.
Now looking into another way of taking care of someone, when they are ill. I think if I didn't have Lupus I would be a nurse. Having been in hospitals myself so many times i think I would be great at it. I have learned compassion for the ill through my own illness. Things that would gross out others (throw up, poo etc.) doesn't bother me. When you have to have someone lift you off the toilet because you are so sick and can't get up yourself you learn a whole new level of humility. It embarrassed me to no end at first (it was my mom helping me). But then, when I realized it was not my fault that I was sick and that I had to use the bathroom it just became a reality to me. It also made me realize that I wouldn't mind helping others do the same thing. I understand how it feels to not be able to do everyday things such as getting up and down off the pot. Maybe I am just compassionate... I know it's not a talent but it makes me feel warm and happy knowing the happiness it gives me helping others.

If any of you out there have any ideas of how to help me find what I am good at... let me know...i could use the help

A true reality

Tonight I was watching a reality show...like a lot of my nights. I got to thinking as i am watching these "reality stars" go crazy, be sleep deprived yet doing what they have to, to win that I have no talent.. I am good at things, yeah but no real, honest to goodness talent.. Nothing that would come up and my friends would say  "oh! I know the perfect person for that!" Unless it has to do with illness that is. Can you be good at being sick? That is not what I want to be known for! I am not sure how to find my "specialty". Now see, my daughter, August is 16 and amazingly talented with hair and make up. She is so good, I asked her to do my make up for my wedding! My husband, Bobby is a born performer. He was the leas singer for a BIG band in the late90's. He has toured, had a video on MTV and gets asked to sing all the time. He not only has a great voice he plays the piano, guitar, bass, he can pick up any musical instrument and just play. He has been in musicals since he was 8 or 9. Then there is me. Yes, I am a good house wife, I can cook pretty well but does that count? I am on a mission to find what I was meant to do!! Find my purpose. If it is to be a really good wife and mommy so be it! I just want to know I am not missing something!